Just a small town girl's journey to and through double jaw surgery: Lefort I, BSSO and genioplasty.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Realization
I'm looking at old photos of myself.
And finally, I realize - I was beautiful.
Do I regret my decision? Not at all, I'm pain free and happy. I'm just sad that this is what it took to see the "old" me the way that everyone else did.
Nora, you are beautiful! I know how you feel though. I think it's difficult not to analyze your facial features after so much of what is wrong has been pointed out to you. After I knew that I needed upper and lower jaw surgery, I started to fixate on my jaw issues in order to see what the surgeon and my OD saw, because I never saw a problem with my face before that. My OD also pointed my "piggish nose" out to me by pressing his finger back on the tip of his nostrils, completely exposing his nostrils, if that makes sense. I thought in that moment, "What an asshole," but it's made me look at my nose in a different way ever since. I'm trying to convince myself now to go back to the same mindset I had before this whole surgery process, where I really liked my face, because in my experiences, medical doctors are nearly opposite of esteem builders. I realize now that my OD just lacks social skills and is pretty insensitive. Don't be hard on yourself, Nora!
Nora, you are beautiful! I know how you feel though. I think it's difficult not to analyze your facial features after so much of what is wrong has been pointed out to you. After I knew that I needed upper and lower jaw surgery, I started to fixate on my jaw issues in order to see what the surgeon and my OD saw, because I never saw a problem with my face before that. My OD also pointed my "piggish nose" out to me by pressing his finger back on the tip of his nostrils, completely exposing his nostrils, if that makes sense. I thought in that moment, "What an asshole," but it's made me look at my nose in a different way ever since. I'm trying to convince myself now to go back to the same mindset I had before this whole surgery process, where I really liked my face, because in my experiences, medical doctors are nearly opposite of esteem builders. I realize now that my OD just lacks social skills and is pretty insensitive.
ReplyDeleteDon't be hard on yourself, Nora!